Web

I am frodo. Suspended, spun, spewed from the mouth of the giant spider's web, like a fly trapped, in fear, insecure, groundless. Don't blame me if i don't appear human. For i am covered with poison and my body is cold and woven into a thick disturbed sleep. with whatever breath I have left, I am uttering phrases, incoherent and unspoken, for mercy from the venom, that it will not get the better of me, that it will not lead me toward the light and so tunnel me down into the deep abyss and find my feet landing on loving hands and arms that embrace with an ulterior motive, for a piece of me for their inner most pleasures, to steal and plunder and strip out my skin leaving me bones and blood on the morgue table, dried and dirty.

i am desperate for air, to come out alive. i am desperate. please don't mistaken me for your foe, or the boy who cried wolf who needs to be erased. i'd rather be beaten by fathers who love me, than be pleasured by faux men who speak with care. i'd rather die by the sword, than these needles that stick me from the back. i want to be alive but i might be better off dead than give in to the screaming toddlers inside my womb.

They say, i don't have to bear it on my own.

But alone is all I feel. This is different. It does not help to sit with the alcoholics and prostitutes. It'll only bring me further into the deep. For when attraction ignites, i veer towards the night and lose the plot. I don't want to lose it all. I want to walk in the light, by rivers of water, by the path laden with righteousness.

That's why i stick to the righteous who walk with confidence. Even though there be arrogance, I know the smell when i sense one, almost an obsession to hang on, align, clench tightly till my finger pale, so that somehow, the faith and strength to carry the burden and lay it down will infuse into my being. Just by being around these great little giants. For i know these giants will grow me up into my own shoes and one day reign with the kings in the land.

Keep me from temptation, but feed me with this breath of life.