commune

you've never cared. so why should you this time. your eyes are fixed on the prize. the one you asked for as a 15 year old. now the cream is ice cold and enticing, you want to have your cake and eat it. and so should you. so should you.

i'm an inconvenient coin sitting in your breast pocket. for what used to be a lucky charm, what used to be the useful spare change you can never do without, now, you can't wait to empty it out. i know i weigh heavy and i am a burden. and it doesn't help i can be easily missed and i get easily sensitive. i know there are some things i cannot change. i have always wanted a brother like you to help effect this change. but time and again, it has made your life living hell. no help for me, good old stubborn me. why do i try? i have no more faith to see it through.

so i will make this easy on you. tonight, i bow out so the light casts on you. please do not seek me in places you cannot find. please do not grieve for what you are not used to. it has never been natural for you to try and be, so why try now? you've never grown up that way, you've always had your own way. so, i will let you have your own way. for when the blood dries and the sheets are changed, you will move on, you will find your bridges to live on. know that i love you. i have always loved you. and that is why this is my last script, my last epilogue, my final hour. you will forget all this. you will find happiness. you will live well. goodnight, and goodbye.

go, eat cake. eat well.